Like I said, this is going to be a place for me to talk about my crazy life. I am being completely honest when I say that today is one of the worst days of this school year. This is going to sound completely stupid, but I am in love with a boy. Well, I thought I was. We never officially dated, but we have always had that type of connection that is rare to find. He had a long term girlfriend, and they ended up breaking up. Of course, I thought that this was my chance... I was so so so wrong. He told me he had feelings for me. We ended up kissing. It was lovely. When I asked him about what was going to happen, he told me he didn't want a relationship. I understood, obviously, he had just gotten out of a serious relationship. There are ALOT more details to this story, that shall remain unsaid, because they aren't that important. But back to the point... He told me he didn't want to date, but then the other day... I find out he likes another girl. And asked her out on a date. OF COURSE my feelings are hurt. You get that terrible stinging feeling whenever you hear him talk about her... And to know that they are going out. That hurts like hell. I don't know what to do about my feelings right now. This sounds like a silly high school thing, but I had such strong feelings for this boy, and I can't shake them, even though I know I have to.
I wish I was an artist. I want to be able to sit out on my back porch with a paintbrush and paint, and let the whole world melt around me. The only thing to focus on is my art.
I sing, but I wish I could write songs.
I am honestly not this depressing of a person, I promise. Maybe you will get to know me better? I am rambling... But I want to write again tomorrow.
-Live, laugh, be dizzy.<3
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