And again, the lyrics move me.

I watch the people in some of my classes, that have tons of friends, and crazy drama in their lives... And it is bitter sweet for me. I am the girl who has a record player in my room, and will sit on a Saturday night and read two books in a row. I have never been one who jumps on the opportunity to go to a party. I have always kind of prided myself in that. But now, watching these kids who have these incredible social lives... I can't help but wonder if I am going to look back on my years in high school with regret.

These kids will be able to tell there kids about their high school experiences, and crazy parties, and the boys they dated. Sure, I have dated boys, but they have never been those cool football players that you think of when you think of the classic high school experience. Boys like that have taken an intrest in me, but they have never been the type of guy I have been attracted to. I just hope I don't regret how I spent my time in high school.


I love music, and I am starting to pay alot more attention to lyrics than I did before. I notice that most artists have been through something really difficult in their lives... Which is almost a nessesity if you are going to write songs like that. I play guitar, and have written some stuff, but I would love to be able to sit, and let lyrics flow onto paper. I think that my problem is that I think too much.

One more thing before I go. I am facing constant conflict between childhood and adulthood. It sounds so cliche, but I have such a hard time letting go of my past. I can't throw alot of things away because I am afraid of loosing memories. High school is almost over, and the rest of my life is beggining. It is the scariest thing I will ever have to face I think.




I promise I am not as depressing a person as I come off as in these blogs.:D